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No more...

This journey with money has been fascinating to me of late. The Lord has given me victory and He is growing me every single day. I cannot keep piling on more debt on my family's shoulders. If I am the CEO of this family, then I need to act like it. I have not put anything on the credit cards in about two weeks and that feels like a lifetime to me. We don't have any oranges, we only have one roll of paper towels left and it will be a miracle if I make it to Friday with this amount of diapers left. But, I cannot put all this STUFF on the credit cards. I see the toll it is taking on Sean, it is robbing him of sleep and me peace of mind. No more.... Now may I just have the consistency to stick with this. I make these grand declarations and sometimes within a week I am back to my old ways. Lord, today give me the strength and the fortitude to stick with our plan. To not be a slave to the lender but to your ways and your love. Thank you for growing me up.

Sometimes..

Sometimes I fail and sometimes I succeed. Today feels like a day with a little of both. I have such clear goals but I am impatient to see them met. I feel like I have been crawling for so long and now I am longing to run. I have to keep remembering it took me a while to get in this hole and will take me a while to get out of it too. Just keep my eyes on the Lord and He will see these goals and ideals met. To pay with cash, to buy a house someday, to be wise with what He has given to me. To be careful of every dollar that flies out of my wallet and my family's wallet. May I make Him proud one day..

New goals for this year..

So, here are my financial goals for 2010. 1. Pay 1000.00 to each active credit card by July 1st. 2. Have 100.00 saved in my little checking account by July 1st. 3. Have 1000.00 saved in the savings account by Christmas. See you on July 2nd with my report!

How am I doing in 2010?

Relating back to that post about my financial goals for the rest of 2009 and here is how we did: 1. Totally paid off TWO CREDIT CARDS!!! 2. Did not get that money saved because everything I got went to Dell but no more! 3. We are still looking to buy that house in two/three years!

So close...

I can almost taste it, it's so close. We have paid off the original Bank of America debt and will soon pay off two other credit cards. We are working together like a team should and it finally feels satisfying. No more secrecy, no more worries. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel and it is so much better to bring something home that you paid cash for and next put on a credit card. Thank God.. 2010 has been a page turner for me. The engines are burning, the light has been turned on, I don't feel like I am walking in darkness and despair with this debt anymore.

Sometimes I fail.  And now feels like one of those times.  I really batten down the hatches when things are going badly, but we get a little breathing space and I run up more debt.  Sometimes, I feel like such a failure...